I cant even count how many times Ive told people I dont like liars, I dont like to be lied to, not even little white lies!
Especially when its some one who is very important to me lieing about sleeping with someone else or lieing to me about being at work on the phone when Im at their place of work and they obviously arent there.

Am I strong enough to leave?
Am I ok with trying to make things better?
Will they ever get fixed?

These are things that have been floating in my mind for days.
I dont know what to do, or say...
I keep buying things for this person... as if to bribe them to want me.

Their birthday is in 2 weeks and I really want to spoil them, but I wont let myself. I dont want them thinking its all ok when its not. I want it to be great, not just better.
Honestly I want to be wanted, loved, admired, spoiled, lavished, and given lots of attention...
Am I asking to much to just not be lied to?

Dont string me along.

If you dont want me, let me go. Dont play with me... Im not some firefly you can swat at... my light will go out.
And so will our future.
... if we have one.

Man oh Man! I love this show! Im watching the episode today about this lesbo who had sex with this  guy...

I get her part because Im in a lesbian relationship and I like to have sex with guys.
but if i was having issues with my girlfriend and I went to eet a guy to talk about it (which I would never do!)
I wouldnt be going with the intention to have sex, and since I was with my girlfriend, I wouldnt be having sex.

This guy is so funny tho!
Obviously he lied about being a sex offender, but I dont know about the date rape thing...
He's had a drug record so I guess it wouldnt be hard to score some ruffies...

Oh god and the best part is the girlfriends on stage.
wow!

well im going to keep watching I just wanted to post this so I could look it up later for refrence! hah!

this is an entry that i feel, well passionate about i guess.
im what most would consider to be a fat girl. i wear sizes large and extra large and sometimes if i wanna be really comfy ill slip into something plus size.

ive always been fat, except for one time in my life when i was al anorexic and gross looking. yeah lets just say 103 didnt fit me weight wise.

ive decided to start a website for bigger girls to get to know each other, rant, rave, whatev. a place where they can share beauty secrets and a bunch of bs like that.

im excited. ive always wanted to have those instances where you see somehting you like, and can actually see your self wearing it, instead of wishing you were 30 pounds lighter. later swearing to you self for eating that combo meal from mcdonalds.

ive also decided i want to have a swap party, more thoughtfulness needs to go into the planning process but im sure its going to be great.
stay tuned for details.

night.